So this is it.

Dear bro:

I know you didnt mean. But it has happen. Theres nothing that make it reverse. i never aspected that to happen. never. I forgave you. But it will never get off my memories. That moment, i felt no one really cares for me. It felt as if they are just pretending. I didnt wanna think that way. i didnt. I wished it was all a dream. But im accecpting the fact that it reallyy happen. Never did i once think bout hating you. I still love you like how i used too. Iloveyou.

Dear sis:

Your existent didnt bring harm to me. Never once. And its also not a burden to me. its not. You know life was for me. That was not the first time he hitted me. no. But that was the first time he slapped me. I dont wish feel that way anymore. I tried. Tried my best to not do it. still enduring it. will it happen? will you leave me? i dont know. i dont what will hapen. iloveyou.

18 nov just come by fast~

Its 13 november today. It will be 5 more days before i leave for overseas camp at kota tinggi. i dunno why but my heart just feel so heavy. i hope everything will be fine. haiz. Ella and Idah will be sending me to sch. Gonna miss you too very much. :( and also the others. :( i just dont feel good. but i guess i will be fine. no worries. will i come back? i dont know.

iloveandmissyou Bro

Iloveandmissyou Nur Salsabella

lloveandmissyou Siti Nur Zahidah

iloveandmissyou Suhailah

iloveandmissyou Honeyboi

My mind is really very blank now.

Dont know wanna updated about what.

 hmmmm. okayy.

Life is fine now.

Trying my best lead a happy life. :)

If you are bored,

you can just call me down.

Sayang Salsabella.

sayang idah.

sayang ilah.

Life is great for me.

Eventhough exam are over, i'm still worried bout next year. :( i really need to study really hard. Now i'm currently at Ella's house with Idah and also Ella's family. :) They are currently doing their art for tmr's O level paper. :) Jiayou! :) Anyway, yesterday i went out with bro. :) Didnt had any plan. but had to go down to friends house to get some things done before we headed to Causeway point. Took bus thru and fro. Quite a long journey. Upon arriving there, me and bro went to grab lunch at Bankquet. :S We had chicken rice for lunch. I guess i ate too fast. :P heh. I just insisted on going home. So we walk there for awhile and took bus home. Slept on Bro's shoulder. Sorry kalau kepala iya berat :P heh. Went down at school area walk2 and bus home. Bro told me to meet Ella. :) so i went down at prime and help her with her grocerries shopping as her vision was blur. :) Chill and talk under her blog for awhile. Felt really happy getting to meet her eventhought it was just awhile. :) Send Ella home and then me headed home. Dont wish to talk bout what happen at home. Well thats all for now. :) Gping to just stare at then doing their art. :) Byebye :)

I love this people veryy muchies : SALSABELLA, IDAHH & ILAH

Ella fetch me from sch just now. :) Eventhough we met at mac. Met up with her together with Wani. :) Then after me and Ella had our lunch, we left. Didnt know where to go. :S Took bus and went 1 round till reaches back Firman's busstop. The both of us chill under the block and talk. Told her so many things. :) I know yknow. Will be telling you more. :) left the block bout 4.55pm. Miss the 99 bus. Waited for the next one took us bout 10-15 minutes. Took the next bus home. :) Ella send me till the block opposite Juying sec. Ella gave me hugg. I tear upon receiving the hugg. :( I felt so touch. She knew how i felt and knew what happen. There has never been anyone that is so concern towards me before. Thank you Ella! :) Your hugg made me feel so much better. :) ThanK you! :) Iloveyou :D

I LOVE YOU SALSABELLA :D

I LOVE YOU IDAH

I LOVE YOU SUHAILAH

Currently at home now. Having Home-Based learning for 2 days. :) Kinda bored sitting in front of computer for so long facing all the homeworks. :S Well i was accompanied by someone. Thank you for acompanying me darling. :) Had fun chatting and listening to songs with my companion. :) Ate lunch together. Sweet and sour fish! Yummy! :P  Now im currently alone. My companion left. Soon i'm gonna get ready for cca with starts at 3pm. I will try to reach on time. :S heh.

Well all i can say now is that i miss Abang. :( Wonder how he doing at Australia. :( hope you are well Abang. Abang is going to end his NS soon. And then it will be 2nd bro. :( haiz. After one comes back. Another one has to go. haiz. Already missing Abang badly and i'm sure i will miss 2 nd bro more. Haiz. Eventhough we rarely talk at home. haiz.  Somemore he once hurt himself. :(

Not going to think much now. Just gonna go with the flow. :) gonna spend the rest of my time with my love ones and make them happy :)

Going to facebook now. And then going to get ready for cca. :) byebye peeps. Take care of yourself. :)

I love you man:) : Salsabella, Idahh and Ilah. :D

OMG! Idah just burp loudly like a pig. Thats what firman says. :) Currently i'm now at Firman together with Ella and Idah. :) accompanying them to study for their O level Maths paper 2. :) All the best to Ella, Idah and firman. :) heh. Well i'm currently blogging. Firman and Ella just burp like a frog. OMG sia! kesian idah kene babi. heh. :) Well they are trying to make me burp but they didnt suceed. haha. No way will i be burping. haha. Anyway, Ella has been forcing me to accept "his" friend request. haha. Let me think bout it okayy darling? :P haha. Exams are over. Well i dont think i have a chance to enter thru train. Well i hope i could. :S Praying hard. :) hmmm. I dont know what else to do nor think. :S

Seeing you makes me more happy :)

I was glad that you were smiling widely just now :)

Dont think so much alrights :)

Think bout ur OLD MAN is way better :)

I love you : SALSABELLA, IDAH AND ILAH :)

I miss you Honney boi :(

i cant even fulfill a promise. i just hurt you more and more. I'm such a letdown ryte. I always hurt others and ruin their mood. Why must you do that hazirah? whhy? i'm sorry. i didnt mean to ruin your mood and spoil everything. I didnt want that. i really didnt want. i'm upset with myself. i dont  know. What she say was true. I'm just a burden to others. I will accept the fact that i'm a burden to others. i accept. I apologise for the words that i said and also for hurting you again and again. I'm sorry. i guess you are tired of my sorries.

Each time i hurt you i will hurt myself even more. its so deep till it touches my bones.

i've hurt you and others. Again. You can just perished yourself into the thin air now hazirah.

Go. no one is blocking you hazirah.

Exam are over. Just waiting for results. I really hope to do well. I'm now currently at a place and alone. Waiting for my turn. Well today Ella and idah are having their O's practical. Wisshing you 2 goodluck. Do your very best. :)  I dunno where to go after this. Haiz. Time just have to fly very fast. haiz. I've  not seen most of the things around here yet. but time is very limited for me. :S i kept reading the letter you gave. It just made me tear. i'm sorry. haiz. Well i hope to get to see you more. I just wish to hear good news. That's all. :) 1st bro had been gone for 3days now. Wondering how he is doing there. Hope you are well Abang. :) Taka care aites. :) The whole family is missing you. :) Theres nothing much to say now. I'll get going. Have to go in now. You people take care. :)

Dont waste your time thinking.

Just do what is right.

Time is not going to wait for you.

Smile-ing very widely now. :)

I love yyou very much sis. You always make me smile. :) Hope that i could make you smile too :)

1st bro left for Australia yesterday morning. Gave him a big hug before he checked in. Almost cried at on his shoulder but control it. Seeing him walk towards the check point just made me feel like hugging him more. I knew that he was sad. His eyes were red when he wave goodbye. Its going to be a month till he comes back. His girlfriend was already crying. As bro walk towards his plane, my heart was just so heavy. Even 2nd bro was feeling down. After he left, my family headed down to bugis for lunch. Didnt ate much as i was feeling unwell. Waited for them to finish and cabb back home. Me and 2nd bro slept throughout the journey home. I dreamt. haiz. Well as soon as i reach home, i slept till i felt the pain. I know yknow. Then met Ella and headed down to pioneer mall mac to revise and study for exam. Had dinner there with her and then leave there at bout 9plus. Chill under the block till 1015pm and headed home. Ella send me home and send herself back after that. After that is for me to know for you to find out.

As the day past, to me, it seem we got closer.

But im afraid..afraid of losing...

I dunno why but you were just in my mind.

Thinking bout you make me happy and sad.

Sometimes cry too.

I wish it would go away and never come back.

I wish it would.

I really wish.

I love you : Salsabella , Suhailah and Zahidah.